So I've been doing things lately; lots of things. I've been doing stuff with the handbells and the kids therein; working most of my evenings down at the Post-Gazette; having friends over on the weekends; Minecrafting and SWTOR'ing. There's been no lack of activity in my life and that's strange as far as my life goes. Those of you that know me can testify that my life generally consists of me and a computer.
And yet I feel this gaping hole in my life which is irritating me to no end.
After years of self-examination and trying(keyword) to look at my life objectively, I believe this has to do with me being something more or less bi-polar. Have I been diagnosed? No, not at all. But I do know a little bit about it. The hardest and most dangerous time for anyone with bi-polar are the times in the middle; the calm. There's no great burden; no trouble or enemy or terrible situation that we must somehow overcome. Likewise there is little going on that is exceptionally exciting or entertaining to grasp our attentions. We sit in the middle.
Or maybe it's just me looking for trouble. I do look for trouble, you know; I thrive on it. I believe it's in my genes or something. Who knows? Either way, I'm ridiculously bored with life and I need something shiny and new. That's all I wanted to share.
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