Sometimes, once in awhile

Sometimes I'm really not as brave and confident as I pretend to be.
Sometimes, just sometimes, I'm really, really just need to be told that it's alright.
Once in awhile, I let everything I keep buried surface, and it turns me into this crazy depressed person that gets cranky and mean because it's really hard to handle all of that crazy without throwing it at somebody.
Once in awhile, I'm really scared.
Sometimes I wish I could scream and cry all these thoughts in my head and make them go away.
Sometimes I wish I didn't have to put on my face every day because I've stupidly put myself in place and life where people actually depend on me.
Once in awhile, I really want people to figure these things out on their own.
Once in awhile, I really want figure these things out on my own. It infuriates me that I can't.
Sometimes I want to just shrink away from everything because I don't feel like I can handle it all.
Sometimes I wonder how I got where I am now.
Once in awhile, I need a hug.
Once in awhile, I regret everything.
Sometimes I'm scared of myself.
Sometimes I'm scared of everyone else.
Once in awhile, I just want to run away from everything.
Once in awhile, I need a clean slate because I feel like everything just so dirty.

I'll always deny it.